How am I, really? I’m trying. IDK if “trying” is really a feeling or really a mood, but I’m trying.
I had some setbacks in October. I spent pretty much a whole month feeling discouraged. I’ve had much longer periods of discouragement – years, even! Years, mostly. But when this wave of discouragement took me over, it was tough to see a way out.
So, I set out to do NaNoWriMo. Last year, I was able to accomplish the goal. But this year… I loved my idea, but 10 or so days into it, I realized I didn’t have it in me. I was focusing on word count. I was unengaged and didn’t feel inspired by this particular story. I loved the idea of it. I will come back to it. I will rework it and use what I have as bones to build off of. But I’m glad I tried.
Trying, but being unable to complete my 2018 NaNoWriMo novel helped get me out of my rut of discouragement. I also wanna shout out my NaNo pals, J & K, who have been very encouraging and kind.
I realized that I can’t focus on writing fiction right now. Pop culture/personal essays are my most rewarding pieces. And my podcast! I’d reached a bit of a standstill, and I’ve begun reaching out to interesting guests for interviews again. I even tried DMing one of my podcast inspirations for a potential interview! I didn’t get a response, but I tried. #shootyourshotin2018!
I’m trying to be patient. I’m trying to make time for improving. I’m trying to find no-cost/low-cost ways to improve my writing and podcasting. I’m trying to use the time I’m given to keep growing, and to keep trying!
So, how am I, really? I’m pretty okay right now! Not flourishing, but not flailing. Because I’m trying!